to post or not to post

I learned a few weeks ago that one of my roommates has a blog, but she refuses to give us the url because she doesn't want us reading it. at the time I was utterly confused why she would have a blog at all, if she didn't want us to read it. she said she wanted one so it would feel like at least someone somewhere in the world was reading her thoughts, she just didn't want them to know her personally or necessarily ever meet her. I've been thinking about that in the back of my head, and I'm beginning to see the benefits of that. it is... I wouldn't say exciting, but for the lack of better words, it is exciting to think that somewhere there could be someone reading this and wondering what I was like, or deciding if they liked me based on my thoughts on "paper." and maybe they would comment on something I said, and that would be a connection. I think what I am starting to think about blogs is what some others have known all along: it is a way to share thoughts and make connections with other people randomly. because that is ultimately what we all want, is to feel loved, or at least noticed. and it's always best to hear compliments or acknowledgements from strangers, because then it proves to yourself as much as to anyone else paying attention that you are worthy of being noticed and making connections, even if the smallest form of connection ever. blogs, or any form of internet connections, are as much for our own benefit as they are for anyone else's we are writing them for. which is why sometimes I think we write the dumbest (in our minds) things for others to read. to see if they will comment. goodness, I'm rambling now. guess it's as good a thought to end on as any.